End of the Beginning

I am sitting here thinking about what this year has been like for me and how I will use the lessons that I’ve learned.

I started this year at a job that I knew would only be temporary. I knew that I did not want to be there for long. I told myself, and a few other people, that 2016 would be the last year that I work for someone else’s dream. With that being said, I worked the first two weeks of this year for someone else. My last week at work was the week preceding my birthday. I won a few contest at work and was able to enjoy my birthday on the company. What I was not expecting was to come back to work just to have an issue that would result in my “layoff/termination”. I wanted my leaving to be on my terms once I had a few things worked out, but that wasn’t the case. I was excited and terrified at the same time. This was not the plan that I had. I planned to work until the end of the year and then leave the ‘corporate’ workforce after that.

I was forced to adjust my plan and make some different moves. I felt so depressed going into a cubicle and calling people trying to convince them to come into my job so that my job could potentially rake in the dough. The amount that I made for each person that I got to come in did not compare at all to the amount of money that the company makes when I get a buying customer to come in or if I saved a deal. I knew that this company was not the best company to work for due to my past experience with them. I have seen people pulled out of their element and transformed from humans into people. I was relieved that I did not have to deal with that anymore, but I was concerned about what I was going to do.

I did not have savings stashed away. I was not receiving child support for children from their father. I was originally denied unemployment. The only money that I was receiving was SSI for my daughter. I had no idea of how I was going to put this together and make it work. I resulted to my instinct and started hustling. I did not hustle anything illegal, but I started to think about what I could sell, what I could offer, and what I could provide. I am sure that I started at least 3 businesses during the process. The most amazing part of all of this turmoil is the beauty that was revealed much later…(like December 2016 later).

I started my writing company in April. I decided to devote my energy to make my company successful instead of working for someone else. This was not what I was hearing from others in my life. They felt like I should submit myself to the plague that is ‘Corporate America’. It was a constant struggle for me to decide if I should listen to the world or listen to the spirit. I know that I was given this gift to help others and I know that this is what I was placed here for. This year taught me that I cannot quit on a gift. Regardless of how I attempt to redirect myself away from my calling, I get jolted towards the facts that my gift is my source. My gifts are not things that I tried to make work for me, but things that have been given to me without me asking. Since I have allowed my gift to speak for itself, I have been exposed to so many opportunities.

I have been included in some major projects and I have some pretty awesome clients, to say the least! I have helped with projects for the White House, UNCC Urban Education Collaborative, and Morris Brown College Foundation, just to mention a few. I have self-published my second book, The Book About Life and I have a children’s book coming soon. My company is growing and I am so happy. It feels good to know that what you love to do is what will sustain you. My year has been full of let downs and disappointments; however, I cannot neglect the beauty that has come from all of this. I have learned some valuable business lessons. I have been connected to some amazing people. I started driving with Uber in early November and that has been so awesome. I am able to still work my business as a contracted Uber driver. I have opened my business, my books, and my mind up to so many people. That is one of my goals – to share my experiences with the hope of helping someone else.

As I sit here and reflect on the year that I have had, the things that still need to be done, the people that have come and gone, and the goals that I have yet to accomplish and I smile. Another year down, another set of lessons learned, and new adventures to explore. I am thankful that we have been able to do some really awesome things, like watch my son compete in the Junior Olympics! I appreciate everyone who has ever helped us out, been on our team, stood by us, supported us, encouraged us, loved us, and lifted us up. Thank you is not enough to express the gratitude. My plan is equipped with an evolution clause now that prevents 2016 from ever repeating itself. The struggle still continues, but it feels so much better being on this side of the struggle on my way up rather than on my way down.

I shared all of this to say…you good!

*Don’t worry about the obstacles. They will make it much more glorious when you step over them.

*The hard part is often doing something that goes against what others feel you should do.

*Be mindful of who you share your goals, dreams, and aspirations with. Everyone does not want to witness your come-up.

*Know that your gifts do not have a return option. You were given a gift so that you can be a gift. Do not allow the pain of the struggle to cover your eyes from the truth.

*That feeling inside of you is guiding you and it is right more than it is wrong; TRUST IT!

*Appreciate true love. It makes a hell of a difference when you are going through your toughest times.

*Keep moving forward. You will never be able to get to the next step or jump over the hurdle if you are standing still.

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