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When I Speak

This poem does not reflect where I am, but it does represent the space that many of us live in daily. Learn the signs of mental distress. Ask the questions and be a part of the solution. I have included a few resources below if you or someone you know is struggling and need assistance.

They say “it’s all in your head” right before they pray for me.
I respond with, “I know that” but knowing is not helping me.
I’m crying out for help while I’m facing this insanity.
I’m hoping that this feeling does not cause the death of me.

I shed tears in silence because sharing them makes me weak.
I have tried to talk about it but no one hears me when I speak.

I am living life like a robot, just going through the motions.
Everyone watches my actions but they don’t consider the notions.
I am trapped in a place where everything I do is wrong.
When I try to escape, the hurts and pain come along.

So I shed my tears in silence ’cause sharing them makes me look weak.
I have tried to talk about it but no one listens when I speak.

I am taking matters into my hands since my actions are what opens your eyes.
But I am not sure how long I can hold on for I am slowly reaching my demise.
I try to keep fighting but I still find myself in this space.
I don’t want to live here, but I am stuck in this dark place.

But I still shed my tears in silence because sharing them will make me speak.
I have tried to talk about it but you don’t see my struggle, you just see me as weak.

If you know anyone that is going through something, reach out to them. Talk to them. Help them. So many people are resorting to abuse, suicide, and homicide to deal with their internal issues. We all go through rough patches in life. Our journeys are all different. Nonetheless, we need one another to survive! We have to be active in the villages of one another.

Take care of your mind! Take care of your heart! Take care of your soul! Take care of one another!

National Alliance on Mental Illness Helpline: 1-800-950-6264 www.nami.org

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 www.thehotline.org

National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-4673 www.rainn.org

Is that you?

It appears to be an epidemic of healthy alternatives recently. The fast food industry is making attempts to change their impact on obesity. More people are getting involved in sports, gym memberships have increased, and more people are conscious of their appearance. Is it because they seek to change how they look or change how they feel about how they look?

When I began to lose weight a few years ago, it was because I was no longer happy with the person that I was on the outside. As a result, my inner person suffered. I did not join a gym or eat the healthier options at fast food establishments. I changed my mind about who I wanted to be. Once my mind was changed, I began to work on my body. For me it was all about self perception.

In today’s society, it seems that most people are more concerned with how they are viewed by others. Those that view us are not the same people that support us. Some of the people that we seek to impress are not interested in our progress. Some of the changes that we make based on what the possible response will be will result in short lived changes. When we make changes for others, to please them and their desires for our life, we take our wants and needs out of the equation.

We can only be truly successful when we adjust our lives for our well-being. We cannot make others happy if we ourselves are miserable. We must learn to prioritize that which is important to us. We should be at the top of the list. Find you in your pursuit of happiness. The fad diets, false healthy alternatives, and make believe support systems will only contribute to failure. If you are seeking to make changes to your life, make the changes that will benefit you. Support you. Believe in you. Love you. Accept you. Be happy with you.