Tag Archives: mental health

When I Speak

This poem does not reflect where I am, but it does represent the space that many of us live in daily. Learn the signs of mental distress. Ask the questions and be a part of the solution. I have included a few resources below if you or someone you know is struggling and need assistance.

They say “it’s all in your head” right before they pray for me.
I respond with, “I know that” but knowing is not helping me.
I’m crying out for help while I’m facing this insanity.
I’m hoping that this feeling does not cause the death of me.

I shed tears in silence because sharing them makes me weak.
I have tried to talk about it but no one hears me when I speak.

I am living life like a robot, just going through the motions.
Everyone watches my actions but they don’t consider the notions.
I am trapped in a place where everything I do is wrong.
When I try to escape, the hurts and pain come along.

So I shed my tears in silence ’cause sharing them makes me look weak.
I have tried to talk about it but no one listens when I speak.

I am taking matters into my hands since my actions are what opens your eyes.
But I am not sure how long I can hold on for I am slowly reaching my demise.
I try to keep fighting but I still find myself in this space.
I don’t want to live here, but I am stuck in this dark place.

But I still shed my tears in silence because sharing them will make me speak.
I have tried to talk about it but you don’t see my struggle, you just see me as weak.

If you know anyone that is going through something, reach out to them. Talk to them. Help them. So many people are resorting to abuse, suicide, and homicide to deal with their internal issues. We all go through rough patches in life. Our journeys are all different. Nonetheless, we need one another to survive! We have to be active in the villages of one another.

Take care of your mind! Take care of your heart! Take care of your soul! Take care of one another!

National Alliance on Mental Illness Helpline: 1-800-950-6264 www.nami.org

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 www.thehotline.org

National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-800-656-4673 www.rainn.org

Black Enough

An article surfaced on social media a few days back and it struck a nerve. The article was in reference to an activist making a slanderous statement about an artist that has a fiancée that is a lighter shade of “black” than he is. It makes no sense. The statement was made that “ANOTHER FAKE CONSCIOUS MUTHER F-KER EXPOSED. I will never support him nor his music with one dime of my money and encourage all dark-skinned women not to either!” The comment was made by a woman who labels herself as a ‘dark-skinned’ activist. From what I have read, she was the victim of childhood bullying because of her skin.

One thing that I know about pain is that it doesn’t just hurt on the surface. This sister is still hurting from what was done to her years ago. When we experience situations that take us out of our comfort zone we either turn inward or we begin to blame others. For example, women that have been sexually abused are typically one of two things; sexually reserved or extremely promiscuous. This is usually the case when they live as victims longer than they live as survivors. They have not dealt with the pain of the situation. I know this because I was a victim and now I am a survivor.

It is so sad that this sister is living so deep in her hurt that she needs to lash out on another sister simply because she is a lighter shade of “black”. She is not the only one that is dealing with this. Many of us live today as if yesterday didn’t exist. We attempt to block out the things that hurt us instead of addressing them and removing the power those things have over us. We have to become survivors so that we can reach more. When we live as victims we allow ourselves to be taken advantage of in ways that we are not even aware of.

We make up in our mind that we are not going to take ‘this’ anymore and we fight back. Who are we really fighting? Have we addressed the issue that caused us to feel this way? How will tearing down another help us get the healing that we need? We should recognize how we are being turned and pitted against one another and make a conscious effort to make a difference. We are the difference. The world is crying out for love and affection. Let’s start within. We need to help ourselves from the inside out so that we can be a strong, solid, immoveable force in society. Let’s make an impact in a positive way. Let’s build each other up and encourage one another to be healthy so that we can be united in the movement and not divided in the struggle.